Raquel Smith future (sexy, funny, adorable, and of course humble) Attorney at Law

Alritey, I'm new at this but I've been wanting to start a blog and am glad that the 3 of you did it, because clearly I was never going to get around to it! Anywho, I sent this email out in late September '08 (that's why info and dates will be a little off whack) while I was working at my old job in a corp. law firm as an "admin. assistant" which apparently is synonymous w/ phone answerer person that has to smile like a robot all day - besides the free wine on Fridays, a few really awesome people, and the opp. to be on facebook ALL DAY (literally!) it was pretty dreadful...so to give you all a little peek into my former miserable job (and we all know if you work F/T your job becomes the majority of your life so i guess i could insert "life" where the word "job" is after the word "miserable") please continue reading...

Soooo, I'm at work right now, dreadfully B-O-R-E-D and I have to pee but I can't until someone comes to my desk to cover for me. In the meantime, I thought "hey why not send out an email so that way you can stop thinking about having to pee?" So, until then I will be updating you all with my current situation... I'd like to start off w/ a quote to get me (and all of you) "in the mood" (hey! get your mind outta the gutter!!!)

"The positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and achieves the impossible."

(if you're thinking, "is this wat she does at work - 'google' inspirational quotes?" you're partially right) however i'd like to add that i also facebook, read people's blogs/news articles/trashy and/or inspirational novels, drink LOTS of coffee, eat fun size snicker bars & reduced fat cheddar sunchips (i'm on a diet), study for LSAT's, and say... "hi, how are you?"...."i'm fine thanks for asking" ohhh ummmm about 40 times a day, give or take - so, clearly I'm quite a busy girl...lol. I also walk by (on my lunch and/or 15 min break, numerous times a day), lawyers' offices who I think are cute!! (i kno...how pathetic can I get?!)

*side note*
(in my best ghettoJennyfromdablockvoice, ahem) ****u KNOW i work it out ladies - gotta get that hubby sooner than later! lol j/k....or am i?***** So far one of them is a chain smoker (and a "dirty dog" accdg to one secretary), the other one is on his honeymoon as we speak (I didn't know, I swear!), the 3rd turned out to be GAY, (dunno how i missed that) and now we talk about his puppy everyday, haaaayyy, it's like so frickin cute, haaayy! and the 4th is old, like really old (oops!)....sooooo to answer your question, NOO I'm not having a relationship at work, unfortunately (or any for that matter lol)

So, speaking of the LSATs, I am taking them this Saturday, October 4th (for the second time) and I am soooo anxious...My plan is, kinda related to that quote way at the beginning of the email - wow I got really side tracked - and I wanted to ask everyone to think of me at some point Saturday morning, I figure the more positive thoughts I have exuding from myself as well as friends etc., the more "positive energy" I will have coming towards me (make sure to send that "energy" all the way to UMBC, ugh!), and the better I will do on the test...and yes, I jus kinda made that up (I swear I heard it from somewhere before and now I whole heartedly believe in it, partly because it is my best hope right now). I'm also in the middle of looking for another job - so Daniela, thanks for all the emails you send out, and keep sending them - bc I've been applying to almost every single one! I have a call back interview tomorrow (woohoo!) and am telling the place that I work at now, that I have a "doctor's appointment" even though I just took off on Monday and now I gotta take the morning off Thursday - watever I plan to NOT get too stressed or get rid of my stress via eating and/or smoking ciggos (i kno, i kno i have YET to quit, but i AM working on it - just not this week bc it's tooo hard!). *Speaking of eating, I just finished, my whole bag of cheddar sunchips! dayum that was sposed to last until the end of the week too, s*** man* Ok, soooo I'm still waiting to pee, but writing this email kinda helped to relieve some stress! phew! Thanks for listening you all, lol!!

toodles!

So I'll be in New York until...well T.B.A. I am shacking up with Ashley and buckling down about the business plan while trying to find a job. So NYC might be my new home, who knows. I also may spend my 22nd Bday in NY? soo who's down? Like I said, as of now I am going for a week but who knows... I am feeling spontaneous. Farewell for now! umm, other folk post much??

--misskatrinaelise

HEADCOUNT!!!!!

LOL...remember that Ludacris song? P-poppin!

Yea well that's how I'm jumping into this blog lol cause I never did Gold White. Sooooo Hi ladies!!!! =)

OMG, first off might I say we are so freakin FANTABULOUS! Like seriously. I miss you guys everyday. Oh and excuse the pic to the right...I was trying to crop my damn titties out, but it was takin too much time...one of you all has to show me how to put a pic in a photograph like how you all do lol

So onto....my life. *Sigh* Where Do i start? So most of you all kno I graduated in December of last year from Hofstra. Since then I have been fortunate enough to get a job with a weekly tv show on PBS called Bill Moyers Journal. I'm a production Assistant here, helping bring in guests for the show, research, blah blah blah.

I have my own place here in Brooklyn, a small one bedroom (like really small) in this old ass, needs to be renovated building. But hopefully I will be out of this place by the end of the year cause I can't take the freakin nosy neighbors, sharing the bathroom, and yes....mice. I can't. I just have to go lol. SO I'm gonna have to put my pride aside for now and see if mommy dearest can float me some money quick fast...cause I gots TO GO. lol.

But there's much more to that. More than I really feel like typing right now lol. So onto, my love life. Soooo yay...I'm in love. I think. lol His name is Denver...just look at facebook for pics. And I've known him since the beginning of college. We were friends first and then got real close and have ultimately been together for about 2 years. And I dunno. I'm thinkign he might be........*breathe* the one.

But I'm not sure.

We've certainly gone through a lot of up and downs in the past year...from drama, to him fuckin around, to me fuckin around, to me almost bout to kill this girl (I swear if I find out where that bitch lives it's a wrap), to just tryin to get our shit together, to finally being in a really good place. He's met the parents and basically the whole family (he was with me on Thanksgiving). And I dunno, we just really have this incredibly strong connection.

But sometimes I wanna do me. I dunno. I think I'm a horrible person for it. But there are times when I'm like, Hey! I'm young, succesful, you aint shit!....but then there are times when I sit back and think, damn I could really build something really powerful with this man.

Hmm. I dunno, just a lot in my head. We will definitely have to sit and sip for that whole conversation. =)

But as for me, myself, and I.....I'm pretty good. I must admit i go through moments of depression where I feel like all my friends up here are just on some bullshit. Like seriously, I have bills to pay, how the hell I'm gonna stay up drinking until 3am on a Wednesday night before work the next day??? Don't make no sense. But, I think for the first time in a really long time, I'm learning how to be comfortable with ME. I've always depended on myself anyways, but I'm realizing that I've always wanted other people to justify my relationships, friendships, or just me as a person. I think at this point in my life I really am just over it. I'm able to maintain and be okay with it. And be ok with just being by myself or saying no. Hmm. Reflections reflections.

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