Raquel Smith future (sexy, funny, adorable, and of course humble) Attorney at Law

Alritey, I'm new at this but I've been wanting to start a blog and am glad that the 3 of you did it, because clearly I was never going to get around to it! Anywho, I sent this email out in late September '08 (that's why info and dates will be a little off whack) while I was working at my old job in a corp. law firm as an "admin. assistant" which apparently is synonymous w/ phone answerer person that has to smile like a robot all day - besides the free wine on Fridays, a few really awesome people, and the opp. to be on facebook ALL DAY (literally!) it was pretty dreadful...so to give you all a little peek into my former miserable job (and we all know if you work F/T your job becomes the majority of your life so i guess i could insert "life" where the word "job" is after the word "miserable") please continue reading...

Soooo, I'm at work right now, dreadfully B-O-R-E-D and I have to pee but I can't until someone comes to my desk to cover for me. In the meantime, I thought "hey why not send out an email so that way you can stop thinking about having to pee?" So, until then I will be updating you all with my current situation... I'd like to start off w/ a quote to get me (and all of you) "in the mood" (hey! get your mind outta the gutter!!!)

"The positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and achieves the impossible."

(if you're thinking, "is this wat she does at work - 'google' inspirational quotes?" you're partially right) however i'd like to add that i also facebook, read people's blogs/news articles/trashy and/or inspirational novels, drink LOTS of coffee, eat fun size snicker bars & reduced fat cheddar sunchips (i'm on a diet), study for LSAT's, and say... "hi, how are you?"...."i'm fine thanks for asking" ohhh ummmm about 40 times a day, give or take - so, clearly I'm quite a busy girl...lol. I also walk by (on my lunch and/or 15 min break, numerous times a day), lawyers' offices who I think are cute!! (i kno...how pathetic can I get?!)

*side note*
(in my best ghettoJennyfromdablockvoice, ahem) ****u KNOW i work it out ladies - gotta get that hubby sooner than later! lol j/k....or am i?***** So far one of them is a chain smoker (and a "dirty dog" accdg to one secretary), the other one is on his honeymoon as we speak (I didn't know, I swear!), the 3rd turned out to be GAY, (dunno how i missed that) and now we talk about his puppy everyday, haaaayyy, it's like so frickin cute, haaayy! and the 4th is old, like really old (oops!)....sooooo to answer your question, NOO I'm not having a relationship at work, unfortunately (or any for that matter lol)

So, speaking of the LSATs, I am taking them this Saturday, October 4th (for the second time) and I am soooo anxious...My plan is, kinda related to that quote way at the beginning of the email - wow I got really side tracked - and I wanted to ask everyone to think of me at some point Saturday morning, I figure the more positive thoughts I have exuding from myself as well as friends etc., the more "positive energy" I will have coming towards me (make sure to send that "energy" all the way to UMBC, ugh!), and the better I will do on the test...and yes, I jus kinda made that up (I swear I heard it from somewhere before and now I whole heartedly believe in it, partly because it is my best hope right now). I'm also in the middle of looking for another job - so Daniela, thanks for all the emails you send out, and keep sending them - bc I've been applying to almost every single one! I have a call back interview tomorrow (woohoo!) and am telling the place that I work at now, that I have a "doctor's appointment" even though I just took off on Monday and now I gotta take the morning off Thursday - watever I plan to NOT get too stressed or get rid of my stress via eating and/or smoking ciggos (i kno, i kno i have YET to quit, but i AM working on it - just not this week bc it's tooo hard!). *Speaking of eating, I just finished, my whole bag of cheddar sunchips! dayum that was sposed to last until the end of the week too, s*** man* Ok, soooo I'm still waiting to pee, but writing this email kinda helped to relieve some stress! phew! Thanks for listening you all, lol!!

toodles!

So I'll be in New York until...well T.B.A. I am shacking up with Ashley and buckling down about the business plan while trying to find a job. So NYC might be my new home, who knows. I also may spend my 22nd Bday in NY? soo who's down? Like I said, as of now I am going for a week but who knows... I am feeling spontaneous. Farewell for now! umm, other folk post much??

--misskatrinaelise

HEADCOUNT!!!!!

LOL...remember that Ludacris song? P-poppin!

Yea well that's how I'm jumping into this blog lol cause I never did Gold White. Sooooo Hi ladies!!!! =)

OMG, first off might I say we are so freakin FANTABULOUS! Like seriously. I miss you guys everyday. Oh and excuse the pic to the right...I was trying to crop my damn titties out, but it was takin too much time...one of you all has to show me how to put a pic in a photograph like how you all do lol

So onto....my life. *Sigh* Where Do i start? So most of you all kno I graduated in December of last year from Hofstra. Since then I have been fortunate enough to get a job with a weekly tv show on PBS called Bill Moyers Journal. I'm a production Assistant here, helping bring in guests for the show, research, blah blah blah.

I have my own place here in Brooklyn, a small one bedroom (like really small) in this old ass, needs to be renovated building. But hopefully I will be out of this place by the end of the year cause I can't take the freakin nosy neighbors, sharing the bathroom, and yes....mice. I can't. I just have to go lol. SO I'm gonna have to put my pride aside for now and see if mommy dearest can float me some money quick fast...cause I gots TO GO. lol.

But there's much more to that. More than I really feel like typing right now lol. So onto, my love life. Soooo yay...I'm in love. I think. lol His name is Denver...just look at facebook for pics. And I've known him since the beginning of college. We were friends first and then got real close and have ultimately been together for about 2 years. And I dunno. I'm thinkign he might be........*breathe* the one.

But I'm not sure.

We've certainly gone through a lot of up and downs in the past year...from drama, to him fuckin around, to me fuckin around, to me almost bout to kill this girl (I swear if I find out where that bitch lives it's a wrap), to just tryin to get our shit together, to finally being in a really good place. He's met the parents and basically the whole family (he was with me on Thanksgiving). And I dunno, we just really have this incredibly strong connection.

But sometimes I wanna do me. I dunno. I think I'm a horrible person for it. But there are times when I'm like, Hey! I'm young, succesful, you aint shit!....but then there are times when I sit back and think, damn I could really build something really powerful with this man.

Hmm. I dunno, just a lot in my head. We will definitely have to sit and sip for that whole conversation. =)

But as for me, myself, and I.....I'm pretty good. I must admit i go through moments of depression where I feel like all my friends up here are just on some bullshit. Like seriously, I have bills to pay, how the hell I'm gonna stay up drinking until 3am on a Wednesday night before work the next day??? Don't make no sense. But, I think for the first time in a really long time, I'm learning how to be comfortable with ME. I've always depended on myself anyways, but I'm realizing that I've always wanted other people to justify my relationships, friendships, or just me as a person. I think at this point in my life I really am just over it. I'm able to maintain and be okay with it. And be ok with just being by myself or saying no. Hmm. Reflections reflections.

I'm also at......http://ladyd-thecommonsensus.blogspot.com/...

Je Suis Ici

I am here...

And like Ms. Elise, I feel like I should be jumping through a window with someone saying something like "INTRODUCING.... magnificent MITCHELL!!" Or maybe that's just how I introduce myself to the world every morning.

Well ladies, we've come a long way! It's so exciting to see and hear about the fantabulous journies we've all had. Like Miss Elise I feel tremendously blessed to have each of you in my life. The last few months have been fabulous, to say the least. We've been able to hang out and party, and I've even had a chance to get much closer to a couple of you. Needless to say I'm uber excited about this blog and its potential. I only hope that the rest of you are as excited and use it frequently enough!

As far as my life goes, I graduated from Howard and got a job that I'm really enjoying. So that's pretty simple. I bought a car and I'm saving to buy a home next year. So that's pretty cool. But the biggest part of my life that has really been anything to really talk/think about is my love life. As you know, N and I broke up in July. It was a hard call to make at the time, but immediately after I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulder. I started seeing other people - including an ex who will not be named (*cough*) lol - and I've had the chance to learn a whole lot about myself.

Now I'm seeing a really great guy (let's call him C), whom Katrina and Raquel have already had the chance to meet. He's really sweet, caring, driven, sexy and everything else I look for in a man. We have an incredible connection that is so great it almost scares me - especially since I never intended to be serious about someone so soon. The really hard part these days is that I miss N terribly. More, now, than I did over the first few months of our break-up total. It seems as though the closer I get to C the more I miss N. I remember all of the little things that N and I used to do that C and I won't (b/c he's not N) and can't (b/c that would be depressing and borderline pathetic). I haven't spoken to N in almost a month now. We used to speak at least periodically through text or something but lately its been nothing. I'm the one who broke up with him so I feel like he's needing his space at this point and plus I want to make sure I'm not sending any crazy/mixed signals. But ALL I want to do is call him. I mean,the honest truth is that I don't want to be with him anymore, I just miss what we once had. I miss him because I miss what we were. And now, it's hard to become intimate (and I'm not talking sexual) with someone new. Especially when the last relationship is so fresh on your mind and heart.

Sigh. Well that was a load off my mind. Sorry my intro post turned into a vidavisi blogger support group meeting lol.

(I'm also at www.mademoisellemitchell.blogspot.com)

introducing...misskatrinaelise!

(hmm i just remembered that they used to say that when you would jump through the window at gold/white). As I enter into my next phase of life (well it's been damn near 7 months now) I felt it necessary to create this blog to stay in touch with a few of my favorite people. Graduating from school and transitioning to the next phase has been a lot harder than I thought and all things good that I have endured during this time has been because of my friends. I truly value the friendships I have in my life and I realize that a lot of them came from my high school experience. I know for each of us that experience was different but I would do it again if I could and I am so happy that I walked away ( in a fab white gown and white satin gloves) knowing such fabulous females. I am so elated by the paths we have taken and where we have arrived thus far. I hope that this blog will make it so that I never miss a moment of what is to come from you all. I imagine this to be some sort of online, written talk show, and you know I LOVE to talk, about everything, so get ready.

As for my current status, I am still looking for a j o b . I had no idea it would be this hard, but then I again I honestly say I didn't know what it would be. As you all know I went to Babson because I was interested in Business etc. and I had ( and still do) have aspirations of being a successful entrepreneur. When it was all said and done, I hated Wall Street, Corporate America and all other things I thought I would grow to love. So when I graduated I guess you could say I went into a state of shock because for the first time, there was no smooth transition into something that I was excited about and could embrace. I came home and am staying with my grandmother and went on this loopedy-loo search for a job. I had no particular industry or position in mind, especially because everything I have been trained for I now loathe. So after months of disappointment, and letters saying "due to the current state of the economy, we are no longer hiring for this position", it has hit me that I actually did get something out of the four years that I can use to make my life what I want it to be. I had to have a heart to heart with myself and reassure myself that I attended the number one institution in the world for entrepreneurship and I have exactly what it takes to create whatever business I want to. I just had to shake off (and by just, i mean in the last week) the idea of coming out of school and landing the 60+ thousand dollar salary and I had to shake this fairytale image of of success I didn't even know I had! lol.

With that said, I vowed that I would just buckle down and get to it. If it means not buying another shoe, clothing item, piece of jewelry or drink (teardrops...pause) then that is what I will have to do. I planned to go to New York with Ashley starting Dec.5 and staying until Christmas. While she was at work, I was going to work on my business plan, make calls, connections, meetings etc to take my ideas to the next level. Ashley as you all know is my partner in crime and obviously would be in on the biz too. So after I made these plans I got a call back from a company (FINALLY) wanting a first-round interview on Monday, so we will see how that goes. Depending on the results I still may or may not be spending a month in NY...

ps: I will still be keeping up with misskatrinaelise.blogspot.com, but I will keep a personal touch to this blog.